Today I pulled myself out of my nest and checked my email, to find this beautiful new award waiting for me. My friend Martin, of Malvedelos Mindscape has created this award for the WordPress family Blogatorium group on FaceBook, and I have been honored as the first recipient. Suddenly I really AM speechless, a condition that is totally new to me lately. Most of my life I have kept my opinions to myself (stop giggling, I really have) but in the past 15 years I’ve found my voice and used it, not always to my best advantage.
I was actually considering shutting down my blog, since I am fighting an infection that has taken hold of me and doesn’t want to let go, but this has restored my faith in my ability to keep fighting all odds, and keep on sharing my stories and battles with you, my family and friends.
There have been some victories lately, the main one being that I have proven my doctors wrong about one huge thing. I’m walking again. Only around the apartment so far. But, against what 3 doctors told me, I am walking. Now my new goal is to keep working on that until I can walk safely outside my apartment. From there it will be walks around the building, and then to the grocery. I have said before I am a stubborn woman, and all I need is for someone to tell me I can’t do something to make me try to prove them wrong.
This blog will continue as long as I am able to keep it going. I have discovered ATT will be phasing out the DSL system we use in my building and going to U-Verse exclusively. This building is not set up for U-verse, so if that happens I will lose my Internet and telephone service. My cell phone will continue unchanged, but my only option to keep my blog going will be to save for an I-Pad, and I don’t know if that will be possible with my medical and pharmacy bills being as high as they are. If I suddenly disappear from the radar, please know it will be because of lack of access to my Internet, or because of my death. We never know about death, but if it’s just the Internet, I’ll be able in some way to leave a message on Face Book that I have lost that. If I can, in some way find a way to get the I-pad I can continue blogging with that, hopefully at a nearby Internet cafe.
So, that’s the story for right now. I have a friend coming in this afternoon for a visit, Mike will be here later to try to rig up a system on the back of my wheels so I can carry a few more bags of groceries on the back, and I have to look for something to eat in my fridge. There are a lot of things in there, I just have to find something that looks like I want it right now. I’ve been spending a lot of time standing in front of it, door open, looking at the food and wondering what I want to eat. It’s shaming to think I could starve when my fridge is full of food, but none of it appeals to my queasy tummy.
So thanks to Martin, and all of you who are checking my blog out now, thanks to this award. I treasure it. And I’ll be checking all of you out, but it will take time. Now I’ll be walking to the kitchen to see if anything new has magically turned up in the fridge, then back to my nest for a nap. I love and appreciate you all, my angels.